After 28.5 years of life, I think I need to face the facts and just admit that I’ll always have issues with weight. I started life out on the hefty size – well, 9.5 lbs isn’t very heavy, but I guess for a newborn baby it is. What I’d give to weigh 9.5 lbs now – just kidding, that’s just gross. I thinned out a little as a young child then around 8 I think I crossed the “above average” weight. I know it’s not healthy, but my weight always fluctuates. Once I get involved in something like a new fitness program or diet, I am all over it and tend to do well. Then, something happens. I don’t know if its boredom, or if I think I don’t have to work as hard because I’ve lost weight, but I always manage to creep back up again and get lax with my workouts and good eating habits. Every time I see someone I haven’t seen in awhile I try to remember the last time I saw them and what I weighed. I wonder if when they see me they will wonder if I look smaller or larger. Maybe people aren’t as obsessed about my weight as I am (ya think?) but I still think about it.
I want to look like this (me at my wedding hair/makeup trial):
So what am I going to do about it? Well, I just started seeing a trainer in December. I saw him for a couple weeks then I got sick for a good week and couldn’t work out. I just started back up with him again yesterday. I’m also joining Weight Watchers again with my mom tonight. I did WW a few years back, I think about 6 years ago and lost a good amount of weight. I have gained probably half back. I don’t know what I weigh now but I think I want to lose around 10-15 lbs by Spring. A bit aggressive but that’s how I roll.